YAY!!!!!!!!!

Ok, as of 5 minutes ago when I stepped on the scale, I've lost 20 pounds! I know that no one really can tell other than me, but I'm pretty excited! 20 pounds ago I was at my heaviest weight ever...and now I'm losing it and will never gaining it back! yay! Pretty good way to start the day!

rjo

Oh Lord its hard to be humble, when your perfect in every way...

Its a song. In case you were wondering.

Last night in small group we talked about the subject of the being humble along with several other things. One verse imparticular seemed to stick out:

37 “Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. 38 Give, and it will be given to you; a good measure—pressed down, shaken together, and running over—will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use,[7] Lit you measure it will be measured back to you.” ---Luke 6:37-38

I have a fear of being judged. I do not want people to think anything negative about me, especially in the church. If I arrive to a meeting late, I fear that everyone there thinks I am a slacker who can't seem to get her priorities in order. I'm afraid of my actions, my words, my appearance, and my intelligence [or lack of] being judged. If this is the case, then why am I so quick to judge? Or so quick to condemn and soooo slow to forgive? I'm a bit bothered by these things.

It seems that God has decided that this is as good of a time as ever to humble me about some things. Brokenness and repenting seem to be the theme of my walk with Christ recently. Its something I need and I understand that, but it isn't too much fun.

I want to be at a place in my walk were I wake up and the first thing I think is that I'm thankful for the day, instead of complaining about wanting 10 more minutes of sleep. I want to be at a place where the needs of others and what God is calling me to do are my priority 24/7, instead of their current place. I would like to be the girl version of David, the girl after God's own heart.

Instead I am currently a disaster area, there should literally be orange safety cones all around me. However, I am learning that God is more than capable of turning my disaster area life into something He is using and is going to use to glorify Him.

Rjo might be a disaster area, but she is growing and using her disaster area status to hers and God's advantage.

If a penguin wore a bathing suit...

I'm sure how to complete that sentence...it just sounded like a good title.

Ok, list of things going on right now:

• One more class of the semester!
• I'm actually reading a book for fun, its been a very long time since I've done that.
• I've got a song stuck in my head....want to know what it is??? ...ok, ok! Stop begging! I'll tell you!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Dbf1R8pZQI

I don't even know why I've been singing this song! I'm not a huge fan of Fred in this movie, he can't be trusted. He stole [STOLE!] Bing's girl. Ok so He gets her back in the end [which, by the way, he shouldn't have taken her back] doesn't matter---Fred is a rotten friend in this movie! Oh well, what can you do.

-rjo

Wednesday!

Just wanted to write something...not really sure what I want to say or a topic to write about, so I'm going to ramble...and vent just a little! I'm sorry if I haven't been a good enough friend recently to all or any of you. I've recently been receiving complaints that I spend too much time with Sean or with just a few friends instead of everyone. If that is you- sorry. I do feel like it is important for Sean and I to spend time together when we can...you know, since we're getting married and all that.

Alright, enough of that- moving on! 66 days until the wedding! I'm soooo tired of planning, i'm just ready for it to be here already! I totally understand now why people say not to have engagements that are longer than 6 months...its because if you do have an engagement that is longer than that you want TO PULL YOUR HAIR OUT! AHHH!! Everything at the apartment is done, all the boxes unpacked and pictures hung up. Oh! By the way--- Sean is living there, I am not. I will be moving in after the wedding, so to answer the question everyone has asked me 1000 times- no, we are not living together.

In other news, God is amazing!...like all the time! Easter is this Sunday and I'm looking forward to it quite a bit! He's still teaching me this patient thing [which is NOT fun but very much needed]. As if that were not enough for Him to be teaching me, He's also reminding me to be merciful and gracious with other...tough lessons to learn, but at least I know I'm growing!

Also, Sean is ridiculous...I mean I love him and all, but he's silly. He told his mom that I am nervous about meeting her! Ok...it is true....but HE DIDN'T HAVE TO TELL HER THAT!!! GOOD GRIEF!!! So now I get to look forward to meeting my future-mother-in-law [maybe before the wedding] for the first time and she will know that I'm super nervous and awkward about it...which makes me feel sick! yay! [note the sarcasm]

Ok, I think thats all. I pretty sure that no one EVER even reads this, but oh well, at least I got to vent! :)

-rjo