Oh Lord its hard to be humble, when your perfect in every way...

Its a song. In case you were wondering.

Last night in small group we talked about the subject of the being humble along with several other things. One verse imparticular seemed to stick out:

37 “Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. 38 Give, and it will be given to you; a good measure—pressed down, shaken together, and running over—will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use,[7] Lit you measure it will be measured back to you.” ---Luke 6:37-38

I have a fear of being judged. I do not want people to think anything negative about me, especially in the church. If I arrive to a meeting late, I fear that everyone there thinks I am a slacker who can't seem to get her priorities in order. I'm afraid of my actions, my words, my appearance, and my intelligence [or lack of] being judged. If this is the case, then why am I so quick to judge? Or so quick to condemn and soooo slow to forgive? I'm a bit bothered by these things.

It seems that God has decided that this is as good of a time as ever to humble me about some things. Brokenness and repenting seem to be the theme of my walk with Christ recently. Its something I need and I understand that, but it isn't too much fun.

I want to be at a place in my walk were I wake up and the first thing I think is that I'm thankful for the day, instead of complaining about wanting 10 more minutes of sleep. I want to be at a place where the needs of others and what God is calling me to do are my priority 24/7, instead of their current place. I would like to be the girl version of David, the girl after God's own heart.

Instead I am currently a disaster area, there should literally be orange safety cones all around me. However, I am learning that God is more than capable of turning my disaster area life into something He is using and is going to use to glorify Him.

Rjo might be a disaster area, but she is growing and using her disaster area status to hers and God's advantage.