I know its been a while...

Dear Joy, I know its been a while so I decided to write a blog...that is if I can think anything other than this one sentence to write. Life is pretty much great right now and therefor I should be on cloud 9 and super happy and excited about things, right? Wrong. I've let my relationship with God fall to the wayside. I think because I did that it has affected my happiness/joy in all areas of my life even though things are going well.

I'm beginning to realize more and more that if I'm where I need to be with God that everything else seems to fall into place. And if I don't put God as my priority, things go just the opposite. I'm guilty of fitting God into my schedule instead of my schedule revolving around God and the opportunities He is and has presented me with.

Today is the first day of me really making an effort, and I admit that it did not go great. I woke up at 6, showered/prayed and talked to God for 15/20 minutes and then read my Bible for maybe 15 after that. It wasn't in my mind a huge success. Maybe I'm thinking too hard about it. I almost want someone to tell me how long I should be reading my Bible for everyday. 15 minutes? 20? More? Maybe it doesn't matter how long you read....maybe its what you are getting out of it. Maybe. Just a thought. Not that I'm saying its ok to read one verse and be done....well, wait, maybe it is. I'm so confused right now and I apologize to my one reader for this blog being probably very hard to read and follow.

So thats where I'm at with God right now. I'm distant, not where I should be, and I'm working on it. I'll keep you updated on how its going.

Other than that, kinda as I said before, things are ok. I love my husband, and He's being very encouraging about me and God and me and the gym, which I have fallen away from some to be honest.

Friends are being amazing as always, especially my one reader who said something about the lack of blogging in my life--- thank you and love you! Small group is....ok. My relationship with God has obviously affected my ability to lead my group as well as I could, but once again I would like to say I'm working on it. I admitted to my group last night that I'm a mess and that I am in need of some encouragement, accountability, and prayer.

By the way, one reader, please feel free to ask me how my quiet time is going. Or if I'm doing it at all. It would be very much appreciated.

Alright dear, I'm going to call it quits for this blog. I may write another one later today. I'm feeling very encouraged. And inspired. And insane. :b

-rachel.